What drives me?
I ask myself the same question on mornings like this when I'm exhausted from the full time job it is to become a better person. Like, "why didn't I sleep in today?" Or "Cancel that meeting?". Why do I keep volunteering my time and gifts when afterward I feel this drained?
The answer is simple (well somewhat)...
Everytime I see something about myself that I don't like I'm ready to take the steps to grow. Whenever I see something painful about the way that people live it pushes me to be greater. When I reach a day where trying to change the world that I'm apart of becomes overwhelming I just think...
"Like my preacher told me even a 3 legged dog still has three good legs to lose" -The Roots
Thats the most melodramatic way of putting it. Of course I'm human and I definitely wasn't always this self motivating. I was lazy. I was very happy with never trying because I thought it meant never failing. I didn't want to become the people I saw everyday who made nothing of themselves but thats what was slowly happening. What changed was my outlook. I started falling into a bad place emotionally and it was then I realized I controlled how I felt. So I started smiling. I started living the way I envisioned my future.
I try to give as much as I can. I never feel like its enough. What is enough? I just know that I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for certain people in my life and I want to be that person in someone's life. Thats my ultimate goal, to move someone to do something greater. Plant the seed.
"I'm the Tupac Rose I let my petals show" -Nate Marshall
Later guys,
Brittany Patrice
I think this is really good. i agree with you.The only thing with me is that i knew if i'm lazy time goes by quite fast.sometimes a day feels like an hour.If you let it past u never see that day again and i think that you should live everyday as if it was your last.I think that you will never learn when it is enough by when your time has come as you can say is " i think i did alrightI know this maybe enough"
ReplyDeleteI like that what drives you is yourself! Everything else around you is motivation because its in your point of view and how much better you can make things.Beginning with yourself... I like, your beginning to plant a seed in me. :D
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